I am a Dreamer

I am a dreamer.

yes, I mean it. I dream pratically every night for already coming 30 years and counting.
Frankly I don't think I will stop dreaming for a day I am alive.

I am always bewildered at why I dream every night. Until today I do not have an answer.
Even more baffling that I have numerous recurring dreams from childhood that even today I can still have that same old dream.
That old vivid dreams which I already can anticipate what will happen next in the dream, but to date, never succeed in waking up myself to the horror, sweating.
Not just this, my dreams have chapters. And I don't have the slightest idea how many chapters it actually has.
The story just continues, on and on, like those you see in the HongKong soap opera episodes.

And I always remember my dreams. Not just remember, is vividly remember.
I can even tell the smallest details in the story and what colours I see.
I do, all the time I have been wondering why do I dream so much.

There are many times where I feel I was here before when I first came to a new place. De'JaVu....The place was in my dreams before.
Numerous times where I met someone or and event has taken place where I suddenly feel so familiar yet far-away, they were in my prophetic dreams.

Am I missing something or overlook some important stuffs that my dreams are trying hard to hint me?
Or I am given some special strength that I can see the future, yet I do not know how to 'unlock' and interprete it.

I decided to follow my dreams if it can help make my waking life better.
Googled a website sharing about dreams-DreamMoods.

That day I dreamt of my dad. According to DreamMoods, 'To see your father in your dream symbolizes authority and protection.
It suggests that you need to be more self-reliant. Consider also your waking relationship with your father and how aspects of his character may be incorporated within yourself.'
Quite true, I badly needing back the self-control I once beholded.

Then I dreamt I am losing hair. DreamMoods said "To dream that you are losing your hair denotes that you are concerned with the notion that you are getting older and losing your sex appeal and virility.
You are preoccupied with aging and your appearance.  Losing your hair also signifies a lack of strength; you do not have the power to succeed in an undertaking. You may be feeling weak and vulnerable."
Woo...apparently I haven't been taking good care about myself for this period of time. Ya, I need to recharge and vibrant up.

Last night in my dream, I remember clearly seeing a flooding toilet bowl with my son sitting on it.
According to DreamMoods, "To see an overflowing or flooded toilet in your dream denotes your desires to fully express your emotions"
and "To see your son in your dream signifies your ideal, hopes, potential, and the youthful part of yourself."
To think about it, I think I need to try harder to express myself if not it will turn into an explosion.
And yes, I miss my youth dearly, something that will never come back in life.

I need to start make my Dream Diary now.