I am a Dreamer

I am a dreamer.

yes, I mean it. I dream pratically every night for already coming 30 years and counting.
Frankly I don't think I will stop dreaming for a day I am alive.

I am always bewildered at why I dream every night. Until today I do not have an answer.
Even more baffling that I have numerous recurring dreams from childhood that even today I can still have that same old dream.
That old vivid dreams which I already can anticipate what will happen next in the dream, but to date, never succeed in waking up myself to the horror, sweating.
Not just this, my dreams have chapters. And I don't have the slightest idea how many chapters it actually has.
The story just continues, on and on, like those you see in the HongKong soap opera episodes.

And I always remember my dreams. Not just remember, is vividly remember.
I can even tell the smallest details in the story and what colours I see.
I do, all the time I have been wondering why do I dream so much.

There are many times where I feel I was here before when I first came to a new place. De'JaVu....The place was in my dreams before.
Numerous times where I met someone or and event has taken place where I suddenly feel so familiar yet far-away, they were in my prophetic dreams.

Am I missing something or overlook some important stuffs that my dreams are trying hard to hint me?
Or I am given some special strength that I can see the future, yet I do not know how to 'unlock' and interprete it.

I decided to follow my dreams if it can help make my waking life better.
Googled a website sharing about dreams-DreamMoods.

That day I dreamt of my dad. According to DreamMoods, 'To see your father in your dream symbolizes authority and protection.
It suggests that you need to be more self-reliant. Consider also your waking relationship with your father and how aspects of his character may be incorporated within yourself.'
Quite true, I badly needing back the self-control I once beholded.

Then I dreamt I am losing hair. DreamMoods said "To dream that you are losing your hair denotes that you are concerned with the notion that you are getting older and losing your sex appeal and virility.
You are preoccupied with aging and your appearance.  Losing your hair also signifies a lack of strength; you do not have the power to succeed in an undertaking. You may be feeling weak and vulnerable."
Woo...apparently I haven't been taking good care about myself for this period of time. Ya, I need to recharge and vibrant up.

Last night in my dream, I remember clearly seeing a flooding toilet bowl with my son sitting on it.
According to DreamMoods, "To see an overflowing or flooded toilet in your dream denotes your desires to fully express your emotions"
and "To see your son in your dream signifies your ideal, hopes, potential, and the youthful part of yourself."
To think about it, I think I need to try harder to express myself if not it will turn into an explosion.
And yes, I miss my youth dearly, something that will never come back in life.

I need to start make my Dream Diary now.

世上只有妈妈好

我并不同意世上只有妈妈好。
我看过很多没怎么样的妈妈，根本一点都称不上伟大的妈妈，没好好疼惜自己的宝宝的残忍妈妈。。
报纸上整天都有令人心酸不舍的亲妈妈虐待小宝宝。。那些可恶的女人，赏她个巴掌都嫌弄脏自己的手。
不好的妈妈，根本没资格做妈妈的女人， 通街是。。。可怜那些幼小可爱却被伤害留疤的心灵。。。
我并不了解为什么她们没有妈妈的慈祥，没有与身俱来得保护孩子的母爱。。
世上只有妈妈好-这不切实际的赞美和期望， 是时候画上句点了。

不在乎

原来我真的可以不在乎别人怎么想。。。
原来我是可以自己做决定，不用一些不相关的人来告诉我什么东西对我好。

我好想大声地对他说，我不用你告诉我如何如何是什么好机会。。
我有头脑，我有思想能力，我知道什么才对我好；你说这么多，只是要我配合你，对你有利的事情。。所以你不用来说服我，我不是笨的！！

那些年。。。。

最近‘那些年。。’真的有够红爆半边天。。
那些年。。我们无忧无虑，
那些年。。我们拥有的快乐，
那些年。。我们拥有的自由，
那些年。。我们放纵的玩乐，
那些年。。我们共同的梦想，
那些年。。我们荡着秋千发呆，
那些年。。我们有着好多好多的‘想要’，
那些年。。我们啃着杯面背书，
那些年。。我们充满着希望和对生命的热诚，
那些年。。都到哪去了？？？
那些年。。是否就真的只剩下‘回忆’呢？

幸福

什么是幸福？

很多人会围绕着自己不够幸福， 因为不够钱用，屋子不够大间，不够华丽，老婆不够漂亮体贴，孩子不听话，等等。。
从怀孕到现在儿子快一岁了，这段日子，我成长了好多，领悟了一些我没当妈妈时不可能会体会到的事物。
我每一天可以看着小宝贝强壮健康，开开心心的长大。原来这就是很幸福的事。
好多人就意味着这是理所当然的事，没啥特别，还会抱怨孩子这，孩子那的。。。
有的甚至把自己的宝宝一天到晚丢在保姆家或公婆家，没有珍惜和孩子成长的时光。
很多人忘记了，有个健康可爱的宝宝， 这不是理所当然的，这是你上辈子修来的福；天赐的幸福，不是每个人都entitled的。
每当我看见生病的宝宝， 无法像正常的孩子一样快乐成长，就很心酸，很不舍；更可怜和佩服那伤心无奈的妈妈。。
可惜，很多人看不见， 看不起自己眼前的幸福。

可怜，很多人不知足，毕竟我们不可能什么都想要，这世间完美的事太少了。

我很幸福，爸妈健在，有老公疼，有可爱小宝贝，每天都可以陪着宝贝一起长大！

会珍惜拥有，才会幸福。
懂得感恩，才会快乐。

Flower

My nine months old baby is babbling a lot these days, as if he is trying to tell you something in his own language. And he knows to call ‘Papa’ and ‘Mama’ very accurately when he is just eight months old.
So my hubby is teaching him to pronounce ‘hua’ and pointing to picture of flowers.
And last night, when my hubby said ‘hua’, my baby then shouted out ‘HUA’.
That was damn funny and I laughed out loud!
He was so cute when he pronounced ‘hua’ and his voice was like angel from heaven!
What else if not this, the best moment to cherish, and to be remembered.

阴影

相信每个人，或多或少都有一些说不出口的阴影，伴随着他们的每一天。。
这一生中，你又有几个阴影，由此之中无法抹去的黑暗，无奈和气愤？

阴影。。。
当我发现我无法去掌控我要的生活方式，
当我被委屈了还要当作没一回事，
当我求救却没回应，
当我有如在自家关在监牢里，
当我必须忍气吞声；最后还是火山爆发。。

原来伤害你最爱的人，比伤害你自己更痛上几倍。

原来最可怕的不是肉体上的痛处，而是精神上的折磨。

A sleepless nite

Last night was a sleepless night as baby Jared is awaked almost every hour for milk and then I hugged him to sleep again.

Looking at his cute little chubby face, I was thinking of what's holding for him for his future? How many more years I have to protect him from the harsh world out there?

And I love him so much that would I love another person as much?

He is always looking for me to play with him and tickle him to laugh while he sucks his thumb and plays with his saliva...haha, he is so much better in multitasking.

He is always in awe and excited when he looks at new things or bright lights and he will try to touch and grab whatever he can, just to later throw it away.

Never underestimate him, baby Jared knows what is happening surrounding him and I know that he understands when I talk to him, and when I say Mummy loves Jared very much.

He always waits for me to kiss his little rosy cheeks and he will start giggling, never fail to melt my heart.

I know I would make sure that baby Jared has the best environment to grow up healthy, strong, happy, love and be loved, with freedom.

And I know his place in my heart can never be replaced.

Weirdo

A weird yet common scene to see here on school holidays and year end holiday seasons...

You will see a lot of Singaporeans by hook or by crook, drive to Johor and spend their holidays in Malaysia while whole bunch of Malaysians will by hook or by crook, drive to Singapore and enjoy their holidays there...

And these people always like to choose the peak go-to-work and go-home hours to cross over the borders, making the already overwhelmed custom center even more JAMMED especially with those of them don't even bother to prepare the white cards ahead!!

The world to them is only this big??!

Hello... there are damn many other interesting places to enjoy your holidays than making the traffic jam even more jammed and wasting your and my time!!!

Damn... if you are financially constraint yet wanna have a fruitful holiday, here in Asia itself has lots to offer i.e Bali, Hatyai, Phuket, Boracay, Taiwan, Macau etc

Any of the places to go is BETTER than the whole family sitting in the car in a massive traffic jam, wasting petrol and pollute the environment!!!

Don't understand why the hell they would like to remember their holidays straining themselves in the car stuck in the jam for hours.....

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幸福

看着他对着你笑,
看着他的眼光跟随着你,
看着他对着你咿咿呀呀的讲故事,
看着他喝奶的可爱模样,
看着他有趣的吮着他的手指头,
看着他好奇的看电视,
看着他不爽的拽脚,
看着他开心的玩水,
看着他学会尖叫,
看着他努力的翻身,
看着他睡得甜甜的,

原来这就是那神秘的幸福...

母亲节

从几何时开始有'母亲节'的？？

你又是如何解读什么是'伟大'呢？？

妈妈真的要你在母亲节时送上鲜花？送礼物？吃大餐？还是长大后好好孝顺她？？

这些形式上的赞扬只不过是商家们商业化这天来赚大钱吧！！

不是说妈妈的爱是无私的，妈妈的爱是不求回报的吗?

那妈妈还需要什么礼物,什么花来回报??

孩子，妈妈只要你健康，快乐，自由活出属于自己的一片蓝天。这就够了。。

发现这里的老板最厉害的地方就是：

期许

原来我唯一要的:

。。。只求他能健康强壮，快乐长大。。。

微笑

原来他的一个微笑可以抵过我所有的辛苦。。。

There is a difference in his smile that melts your heart...
Because he smiles from the heart...

选择

什么是心痛？
什么是不舍？

什么叫无奈？
怎么做决定？
要把握今天，还是准备未来？

知道要感恩。。。
知道要知足。。。

他是我一辈子甜蜜的牵挂。。。

妈妈说，做个有信心的妈妈。。。

What a mother can do..

What a mother can do for her baby?

EVERYTHING & ANYTHING..

Eat out @ Arashi, Jusco

Was some time ago... we had a scrumptious dinner @ Arashi, Jusco..

A nicely renovated restaurant, very warm kinda environment.. with Japanese Shabu-shabu style where you can mix different kind of sauce to your taste and like :)

Nice ehh?? :)

I tell you...Super delicious ;p

人生需要放下的八样东西

Read this from somewhere... felt enlighten and wanna share this out to all friends :)


1、放下压力

累与不累，取决于自己的心态。

心灵的房间，不打扫就会落满灰尘。

蒙尘的心，会变得灰色和迷茫。

我们每天都要经历很多事情，开心的，不开心的，都在心里安家落户。

心里的事情一多，就会变得杂乱无序，然后心也跟着乱起来。

有些痛苦的情绪和不愉快的记忆，如果充斥在心里，就会使人委靡不振。

所以，扫地除尘，能够使黯然的心变得亮堂；

把事情理清楚，才能告别烦乱；

把一些无谓的痛苦扔掉，快乐就有了更多更大的空间。

紧紧抓住不快乐的理由，无视快乐的理由，就是你总是觉得难受的原因了。



2、放下烦脑

快乐其实很简单

所谓练习微笑，不是机械地挪动你的面部表情，而是努力地改变你的心态，调节你的心情。

学会平静地接受现实，

学会对自己说声顺其自然，

学会坦然地面对厄运，

学会积极地看待人生，

学会凡事都往好处想。

这样，阳光就会流进心里来，驱走恐惧，驱走黑暗，驱走所有的阴霾。

快乐其实很简单，不要自己不快乐就可以了。



3、放下自卑

把自卑从你的字典里删去

不是每个人都可以成为伟人，但每个人都可以成为内心强大的人。

内心的强大，能够稀释一切痛苦和哀愁；

内心的强大，能够有效弥补你外在的不足；

内心的强大，能够让你无所畏惧地走在大路上，感到自己的思想，高过所有的建筑和山峰！

相信自己，找准自己的位置，你同样可以拥有一个有价值的人生。



4、放下懒惰

奋斗改变命运

不要一味地羡慕人家的绝活与绝招，通过恒久的努力，你也完全可以拥有。

因为，把一个简单的动作练到出神入化，就是绝招；

把一件平凡的小事做到炉火纯青，就是绝活。

提醒自己，记住自己的提醒，上进的你，快乐的你，健康的你，善良的你，一定会有一个灿烂的人生。



5、放下消极

绝望向左，希望向右

如果你想成为一个成功的人，那么，请为“最好的自己”加油吧！

让积极打败消极，

让高尚打败鄙陋，

让真诚打败虚伪，

让宽容打败褊狭，

让快乐打败忧郁，

让勤奋打败懒惰，

让坚强打败脆弱，

让伟大打败猥琐……

只要你愿意，你完全可以一辈子都做最好的自己。

没有谁能够左右胜负，除了你。

自己的战争，你就是运筹帷幄的将军！

不是所有的梦想都能成为美好的现实，但美丽的梦想同样可以装点出生活的美丽。



6、放下抱怨

与其抱怨，不如努力

所有的失败都是为成功做准备。

抱怨和泄气，只能阻碍成功向自己走来的步伐。

放下抱怨，心平气和地接受失败，无疑是智者的姿态。

抱怨无法改变现状，拼搏才能带来希望。

真的金子，只要自己不把自己埋没，只要一心想着闪光，就总有闪光的那一天。

纵观古今中外，很多人生的奇迹，都是那些最初拿了一手坏牌的人创造的。

不要总是烦恼生活。

不要总以为生活辜负了你什么，其实，你跟别人拥有的一样多。



7、放下犹豫

立即行动，成功无限

认准了的事情，不要优柔寡断；

选准了一个方向，就只管上路，不要回头。

机遇就像闪电，只有快速果断才能将它捕获。

立即行动是所有成功人士共同的特质。

如果你有什么好的想法，那就立即行动吧；

如果你遇到了一个好的机遇，那就立即抓住吧。

立即行动，成功无限！

有些人是必须忘记的，有些事是用来反省的，有些东西是不能不清理的。

该放手时就放手，你才可以腾出手来，抓住原本属于你的快乐和幸福！

有些事情是不能等待的，一时的犹豫，留下的将是永远的遗憾！



8、放下狭隘

心宽，天地就宽

宽容是一种美德。

宽容别人，其实也是给自己的心灵让路。

只有在宽容的世界里，人，才能奏出和谐的生命之歌！

要想没有偏见，就要创造一个宽容的社会。

要想根除偏见，就要首先根除狭隘的思想。

只有远离偏见，才有人与内心的和谐，人与人的和谐，人与社会的和谐。



我们不但要自己快乐，还要把自己的快乐分享给朋友、家人甚至素不相识的陌生人。

因为分享快乐本身就是一种快乐，一种更高境界的快乐。



宽容是一种美德。

宽容别人，其实也是给自己的心灵让路。

只有在宽容的世界里，人，才能奏出和谐的生命之歌！

Turned one month old...

Little Jared is one month old today!!! :)

This is Jared's 'man yue' cake for all the relatives and friends...

Jared's 'man yue' cake, nice or not?



Jared's mischievious smile :)

Privacy Needed

I find it very frustrating when people don't respect others privacy... I don't know if that is on purpose or he/she thinks that privacy is not needed or other people also don't have privacy becoz he himself/she herself don't need any privacy...



It is again more frustrating that when the person who is not respecting your privacy is someone you cannot call him/her off or to tell him/her to please respect your privacy.



Asians are among the worst group in knowing to respect other peoples' privacy. The law here doesn't enforce the importance of it too, too bad!!!!



But in this 21 century, people are taking more and more account in their own privacy, please wake up and live the life of the present, not your past!!!!



Damn, I wanna so much to tell him/her:

1. Please STOP looking at others breast, for GOD sake!!!!

2. Please knock the door when you wanna come in, you don't practice that at your home doesn't mean that you can do the same at other people territory!!

3. Please don't just throw/take anything from others' house as how you do it at your house, simply becoz THAT IS NOT YOUR HOUSE!!!!!

4. Don't dirty others' house and mess up others' stuffs like how you make your house dirty and messy, also simply becoz THIS IS MY HOUSE!!!!!!!!!